Finding My Way Back to God Through Hardship

Finding My Way Back to God Through Hardship

(Part 1 of the “Coming Back to Faith” Series)

The last five to six years have brought so much pain into many of our lives. We’ve all carried the weight of a worldwide pandemic, and for me, that season was compounded by personal health struggles and massive life changes.

When our bodies are hurting, or when we walk through trials and tribulations, the natural response of our human nature can be to withdraw. Sometimes we pull back from God or stop trusting in His love and goodness.

That’s exactly what happened to me. Fear and trauma weighed heavily on me during COVID. With so much happening all at once—both in the world and in my own health—I found myself guarding my heart in the only way I knew how: by pulling away, even from the One who loves me more than anything, God Himself.

For a long time, I carried shame for moving away from Him in the very moments I needed Him most. And yet, slowly, God has been drawing me back. It’s been a journey of learning to trust again—trusting His goodness, His love, and His plan for my life and for creation.

I don’t have it all figured out, but what I know now is this: even when I withdraw, He never does. His love is steady. His arms remain open. And His plan is always for my good.

Prayer:

Lord, thank You for never letting go of me, even when I try to pull away. Help me to trust Your love and goodness in every season, especially in the hardest ones. Draw me close to You and remind me that Your plan is always for my good. Amen.

This post is the beginning of my “Coming Back to Faith” series. Each week, I’ll share pieces of my story—the struggles, the healing, and the ways God continues to meet me with His love. My hope is that you’ll find encouragement for your own journey, and remember that no matter how far you feel, God’s love is always reaching for you.